My week

Okay so I am feeling the pressure to post something to my blog, but my week has been filled with the less-than-thrilling grunt work of job and internship seeking. So I haven't felt the creative urge.

But I must share the exciting news to the five people that read this that I am officially employed!!

Not gloriously employed, but grad-student, part-time, I-will-do-anything-to-make-an extra-buck-real-fast employed, with super-flexible, so-flexible-they-could-be mistaken-for-gymnastics kind of hours.

So it's perfect. I will be housecleaning as an independent contractor with a local company here in Charlotte, and I am thrilled to do this kind of labor that doesn't take much thought, or many people to talk to. I love it.

And....I am about to seal the deal(but nothing official yet) on my first, AND SECOND practicum in the field of counseling. And these will take a lot of thought and much more talking to people. More about that soon I hope....

So that's my week, and I don't have much more to say except that God has really spoken to me about my constant worry and fretting which always seems to occur in the wee hours of the morning, and how it is all for not, and he has led me to read the last part of Matthew 6 over and over again this week. I am such a control freak and I don't deal well with uncertainty. But to really trust God and experience freedom, we must embrace the chaos of our lives and the darkness of uncertainty. We must just sit still and accept it. We can deal. We can deal with not-knowing, not-knowing what's next, not-knowing the path to fulfill how we know he has called us, and not-knowing how he will meet our needs from day to day. We can deal because the Father knows everything. Us---Not-knowing. Him---All-knowing.

Why I sweat it out in the quiet parameters of my bedroom, I don't know, because it won't add a single hour to my life. The Word says tomorrow will worry about itself, and in response I ask, "Well, Lord, now that is just not very practical, How will one plan for tommorrow, if they only worry about today?" And the Lord is still teaching me the difference between planful concern and being a friggin' worry wart!

And the moments of peace and serenity I experience in his presence are like opening a window to let me soul breathe. And it's quiet for a minute and it's freedom. Thank you Lord.